an illusion of an about me 

I am an annoying asshole that lives in France. Chances are if you piss me off I will go out of my way the be super annoying. 

There was a time where I was on the internet for funsies and human love and when I didn’t give my opinion about anything because I don’t give my opinion in real life because it terrifies me and i blush heavily when more than two people look at me at the same time or when i just say something that I think. But then I decided fuck it my opinion is my opinion and if others give it I can too. Sadly this only happened during summer 2011 where the only human communication I got was on the internet but I’m pretty sure that this year I will get good and one day my shyness will only be a terrifying memory. 

But I will repeat that I’m annoying. I give my opinion but I always think it sucks so I just let other people decide if it sucks or not. But there are people that I value the opinion and it is only them I will listen to. Like, sorry. If I don’t know you and you don’t know me I probably will tell you to fuck off. And I will get angry. I get angry a lot.

My mom says I’m actually too angry as a person and that it’s not healthy or whatever shit she says. I don’t listen to her because she annoys me and she’s actually horrible to me. I don’t think being angry is a problem and actually I’m angry at people for not being angry. Because if i’m not angry, who’s going to be ? Think. The truth is the world is stupid and humans are stupid and wrong and their stupidity needs to rectified. I hate acting like I’m better than people because most of the time I really think i’m the worst but sometimes people are just wrong and I think i have to tell them in case no one else does. 

Being offended is my favourite hobby. If i’m not offended in a day I consider this day unworthy. But considering I’m always offended all days are worthy and this is cool. Right. Ok. 

This is a blog about Cersei Lannister because Cersei Lannister is perfect and her haters have sucky urls. And yes I’m one of those assholes that judge people based on their urls. Like, some urls just suck. This is tumblr and if you suck i won’t like you. 

We should talk about freedom because if you’re following me you have to know this is the most important thing in my life. Seriously, if someone tells me “men are not free” I will probably think all of your opinions are stupid (unless i already thought your opinions were good in which case I will have to rethink what I think of you.) But no one can get away with saying we’re not free. I think the world that we live in is actually making you believe that you’re not free, while making you believe you are. Like it’s while you believe you’re free that you realise you’re not. But you are. They will say that we’re not free because we can’t always do what you want. Yeah. If we could do what we want, we wouldn’t be free, right? Because we wouldn’t have a choice. Because the choice is what makes us. All the time. Our life is made of choices. DON’T YOU SEE IT. I probably have more feelings about freedom than I have about Cersei Lannister and that is saying something. BUT. FREEDOM. FREEDOM IS IN THE CHOICE. WHEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU “THERE’S NOT A CHOICE” IT MEANS THERE FUCKING IS. GRANTED IT CAN BE BETWEEN LIFE OR DEATH BUT THE CHOICE IS THERE AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE IT. OK. MAKE IT!!!!!! AND WHEN MY PARENTS GIVE ME ULTIMATUMS ABOUT MY FUTURE I JUST CAN’T DO IT BECAUSE NO ONE TRIES TO TAKE MY FREEDOM AND GETS AWAY WITH IT SERIOUSLY. MY PARENTS DON’T BELIEVE IN FREEDOM SO OBVIOUSLY THIS IS WHY WE HAVE PROBLEMS BUT WE’RE NOT HERE TO TALK ABOUT PEOPLE THAT ARE WRONG. SARTRE ONCE SAID “WE ARE CONDEMNED TO BE FREE” AND WE ARE. WE. ARE. THAT DOESN’T MEAN IT’S EASY. THAT DOESN’T MEAN IT’S GREAT. I THINK PEOPLE THAT SAY WE’RE NOT FREE SAY IT BECAUSE THEIR LIFE ISN’T EASY AND MAYBE THEY’RE NOT REALLY HAPPY. OR THAT THEY WANT SOMETHING THEY CAN’T HAVE. I THINK THEY IMAGINE FREEDOM TO BE SOMETHING UNREACHABLE BECAUSE IF THEY COULD REACH IT THEIR LIFE WOULD BE BETTER. EXCEPT THAT WHAT MAKES FREEDOM THE BEST AND THE ONLY THING THAT A HUMAN BEING IS THAT IT’S ACTUALLY THE WORST. IT GIVES YOU RESPONSIBILITY. IT FORCES YOU TO ADMIT THAT YOU’RE IN A WORLD AND THAT YOUR LIFE IS ONLY YOURS TO LIVE. I THINK IT’S EASY TO SAY FREEDOM DOESN’T EXIST SO THAT WHEN PEOPLE SMASH IT DOWN YOU DON’T CARE BECAUSE YOU DON’T THINK IT’S A PROBLEM. THAT’S WHY PEOPLE CLOSE THEIR EYES ON EVERYTHING THAT IS WRONG BECAUSE IT’S EASIER. AND SERIOUSLY I UNDERSTAND. OF COURSE IT’S EASY. TO ACT LIKE EVERYTHING IS FINE IS COOL. WHAT IF THOSE PEOPLE ARE TREATED LIKE SHIT IT DOESN’T MATTER BECAUSE IN THE END WE’RE NOT FREE AND WE REALLY CAN’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. EXCEPT WE CAN. AND THAT’S WHAT FREEDOM IS. IT’S NOT BEING ABLE TO DO WHAT YOU WANT, OR WANT TO DO SOMETHING. IT’S DOING IT. AND YOU DO IT, YOU’RE FREE. AND WHEN I CHOOSE THAT I’D RATHER HAVE A ~UNCERTAIN FUTURE~ INSTEAD OF DOING SOMETHING SOMEONE ELSE WANTS ME TO DO IT’S MY LIFE AND IT’S MY PROBLEM AND IT’S. MY. CHOICE. CHOICE IS ALL I HAVE AND I DON’T CARE. IT MAKES MY LIFE HARDER BUT IT MAKES IT BETTER. FREEDOM ISN’T A GIFT. FREEDOM IS HEAVY ON SHOULDERS AND IT SENDS FEAR AND TROUBLE IN YOUR LIFE BUT IT’S THE MOST BEAUTIFUL FEELING TO KNOW THAT YOU CHOSE IT. YOU. YOU, IDIOT. FREEDOM IS NOT ABOUT BEING ABLE TO DO AND IT’S NOT ABOUT SUCCESS. I CAN’T SEE HOW FAILURE MAKES YOU NOT FREE. IT DOESN’T. YOU’RE FREE AND IT’S TIMES HUMANS ADMITTED IT. I’LL ADMIT ALSO THAT THOSE EXTREME FEELINGS ABOUT FREEDOM ARE A PROBLEM BECAUSE I’M TOO STUBBORN TO ACCEPT OTHER PEOPLE’S DECISIONS. IF SOMEONE TRIES TO MAKE A CHOICE FOR ME BUDDY YOU WILL REGRET IT. REALLY. AND IT SCARES ME SOMETIMES TO DECIDE THAT EITHER MY PARENTS WILL ACCEPT ME OR JUST NOT TALK TO ME AGAIN (EXTREME, I SAID) BUT IF IT IS THE CHOICE I WILL HAVE TO MAKE I WILL.

So in the end my whole life is defined about freedom. This is why I study philosophy because… I chose it. This is why politics are super important (the only important thing tbh) because seriously WE HAVE TO FIGHT. WE CAN’T LET THEM WIN IT’S OUR LIFE (lol extreme). I guess someone would argue that I should spend less time on the internet and more time doing something but don’t worry AS SOON AS I SEE SOMETHING I CAN PARTICIPATE IN I WILL. I ALREADY DID AND I WON’T STOP. 

But to end this debate (I really don’t know why i thought it necessary to put it in about me… but i get excited a lot) I am asking you to freedom-haters : if you’re not free, why do you live?

OK LET’S GO BACK TO A CALMER ABOUT ME

Name : Lo
Age: 21 (i’m old ew)
Toulouse, France. Beautiful city. You should come.
I have feelings. Like too many. This is terrible but i don’t care. Sometimes i can’t sleep because of it. Before when someone insulted my favourite characters i used to spend 2 hours in my bed defending them and crying about this hate. Now i just insult the people because they’re wrong. 
If you insult Mr Harry James Potter and Cersei Lannister, I will not be pleased. There are others but in the case of Harry and Cersei my anger will not be stopped.
I ship all the weird things and I don’t give a fuck.
Everyone is a life ruiner.
Sometimes when canon doesn’t please me i decide the author was an idiot and i make my own canon and i decide it’s the real one. So like if you insult my choices please remember my canon isn’t the real canon. And I do what I want. This is mostly about Harry Potter or various tv shows. Jsyk the next time you want to use my about me against me.
If you want to know something, ask.
Charles Baudelaire is the best person and anyone who judges he was a bad poet has no taste. Like seriously. He was a stupid human but he’s the best poet to have ever lived. Don’t deny. He owns your souls.
I hate Sarkozy. Like, a lot. But I hate most politic people in France because they suck.
DSK needs to G T F O.
I don’t know what to tell you.
This is not a quality blog. I should say it.
I love you though. Mostly.